Hi guys thanks for stopping by. My name is Nat and I created this site because I’m super keen on the power of positive energy. I am also passionate about sharing the potholes on the old self improvement path, particular in respect to LOA teachings. It is my intention by way of this forum to assist others on a self improvement path and to help dodge some of the traps that can arise along the way.
Short Story 🙂
I grew up in Sydney, Australia. A shy, awkward child who never really felt like she fit in. I carried this feeling of ‘not good enough’ into my adult years and it was at the basis of some shonky choices and unpleasant experiences. I am now 41. I am married and my daughter is 18. After a turbulent path, I finally adore who I am. If you have ever suffered feelings of ‘not good enough’ to finally feel ‘good enough’ is a beautiful experience. It is my desire to help others experience this gift. If you’d like to know more about me, please read on.
Longer Story 🙂
I was in my late 20’s when I read my first personal development book. It was Susan Jeffers Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway. It was the catalyst for selling my home, leaving my job, moving to a small coastal town and becoming a somewhat recluse. I was a single mum with a gorgeous little girl. The year was 2004, and after years of bad decisions, bad experiences and a spirit that felt broken, it had all came to a head. I wasn’t just physically tired, the exhaustion ran deep to my soul.
It was the start of what I call healing my spirit. Gerringong is a picturesque little town south of Sydney. The views of the ocean and mountains are breathtaking. It was quiet, serene and the perfect place to begin making changes. At a little crystal store in Berry one Sunday afternoon, I purchased a book written by the Dalai Lama. It was the second book that changed my life. The Buddhist teachings resonated so deeply with me. They explained how I created my suffering and I gained insight to long-held feelings of not feeling good enough and needing to please and be accepted by others. I read everything I could on buddhism and meditation and I slowly began to regain a sense of feeling okay in the world.
Some time later, I came across a book about energy, vibration and law of attraction. And to be honest there were times I wished I had never read it! Why? Because it ignited my dreams. I had given up on my dreams and I was okay with that. I was content. I was still very much a recluse but I was happy. I loved where I was living, I had my beautiful daughter and I had a good work life balance. But this damn book inspired me to desire things for her and I that I hadn’t previously allowed myself to dream of.
In 2010, even though I had made some incredible changes in my life (I had met my now husband and had moved interstate) I was still occasionally hit with feelings of despair. It was then I was inspired to say Yes to everything life gave me for 30 days. You can read about the experience here in a journal I kept at the time. I thought I had found my life purpose. Honestly, I thought, this is it, this is my life calling, to tell the world about resistance. The thing was, as you will discover if you read the story, I was still caught up in old patterns of ‘forcing’ life to happen.
In the years that followed my Yes experience, I fell deep into Law of Attraction and Abraham teachings. I was on YouTube for hours a day, and I couldn’t get enough. Its quite intoxicating to be told everything you ever dreamed of is there waiting for you to get into alignment with. Whilst I was working on my ‘alignment’ I wasted a lot of time waiting for stuff to happen, and I avoided things in fear of attracting the unwanted. I was also guilty of the sort of manic ‘fake happy!’ that can come with ‘moving up the emotional scale’ and ‘getting into the vortex.’ My life actually stagnated in many respects. I was tired of believing, ‘Yes, I am soooooo in alignment!!!’ only to have some crappy manifestation arise which exacerbated feelings of confusion and frustration. It is not my intention to put down the teachings, simply to share where my own path went array.
In 2013, in a spectacular meltdown, I threw out all of my self help books and CDs, keeping only a handful of Buddhist texts, and I joined the military. It was never a life dream not even close, yet interestingly, the experience was what moved me to my next chapter, towards the dreams I had always held dear.
My quiet nature is often commented on as being contradictory for military service. “WTF is a vegan hippy like you doing in the military?!’ one of my comrades once exclaimed. What many do not see at first, is my mind, which is strong. In just three years I was awarded a CO’s Gold PQ at recruit school, a leadership award at recruit graduation, dux of my class and dux of the year for my category training, a CO’s commendation upon my first posting and selected to represent Australia in France marching for Bastille Day. I was also awarded a Bronze Commendation upon completion of my deployment to the Middle East. I never set out to win awards (Eeek attention is an introverts nightmare!) and it is not my intention to big note but simply to share with you the power of cultivating strong energy regardless of where you may currently stand. You can do this too.
So these days, my baby bear has finished school and has commenced uni. I have been married for 10 years and I am blessed with two cheeky fur babies both who are into their senior years. I reside in Vincentia, Jervis Bay, and it has a beauty unlike any other. The beaches have the whitest sand and the water honestly takes my breath away still to this day. It is like Tahiti or the Maldives. I love animals and I am a passionate activist for animal rights. I am still very much an introvert. I love my own company but at the same time, I care about people and have a genuine interest in learning their stories.
I am transitioning from the military back into civilian life and feel excited about the next chapter. I have created my own vegan perfume line and I am absolutely loving the feeling which comes with creating my own path.
I felt inspired to create this site to share what I have learned from both formal energy healing study (psychosomatic therapy, metaphysical counselling, reiki, massage and vibrational essences) and personal experience. It is my hope to assist others on a similar path.
Please feel welcome to get in touch or share your own energy healing experiences as the healing path is unique and sacred to each of us and you never know how your experiences may help someone else.
Here’s to your gorgeous soul 😘
Standard necessary disclaimer: This site is an expression of my personal experiences and thoughts. I am not a medical or psychological professional and any suggestions on this site should not replace individual professional treatment.